I feel like I have been stuck in emotional quicksand over the last two years, my focus had been trying to see if I could save my marriage. I know in my heart I did everything I could, I had to try before I made the decision to leave. I just kept going back and forth, ‘I’m leaving’, no ‘I’ll give her one more chance. Now that I have made the decision to move on with my life so many insights are showing up. Keep this daily journal along with the discussions I have been having in Fetlife and reading the posts from people in the Lifestyle has helped immensely.
I’ve learned do not deny who you are it will kill you by inches and do what you need to do to look after yourself.
I have been wondering what I am doing here and I have many reasons and underneath all of them it feels like I am simply looking for a human connection, I want someone to touch me and hold me and tell me they love me and I want to hold them and tell them I love them as well. Such a simple thing and so powerful.
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